Sunday, 23 June 2013

My Year of becoming a 'Yes' Woman

I began 2013 as a very, very different person - very down, very timid, having completely lost all of my confidence. I plucked up the courage and changed my life; I got rid of what and who made me feel worthless and I made my life better. I am now the happiest I have been in years, I'm going travelling with my best friends for 5 months+ in September and I'm just living my life, something I wasn't doing before. I'd lost my way and lost what made me 'me'.

I wrote this in March/April 2013 on my original blog...
"This morning I have re-read some of the archived blogs from one of my favourite online bloggers, The Londoner (Okay, so I’m meant to be busy at work but It’s early, it’s sunny and I have the attention span of a fly!).
I came across this article I read at the beginning of 2013 and now more than ever it is something I can 100% relate to. When you’ve become comfortable, you don’t often realise until it gets unbearable how unhappy you can become and then suddenly it clicks.

So I made some changes; I did the bravest thing I’ve ever done, and I got out of there. And like Rose I now feel lost and totally alone but after a couple of days, I’m seeing the positives and realising, the world is now my oyster and I can do what I want, when I want - I can become a ‘yes woman’ too. After re-visiting Rose’s blog and reading her Goodbye 2012 post, it’s given me the hope and the push that I needed to change my life. No matter how scary it is, I’m happy with my decision and a lot of it is because of this blog post. It might sound strange, but when you read something and it really speaks to you, it can be very comforting. So thank you Rose, you’ve inspired and encouraged me. As Rose said “If for any reason you don’t like where your life is at the moment, change it, I promise it’s you with the power. Make your own fate.” - And that’s what I’ve done; I couldn’t be happier (or more scared!) but I am now very optimistic about my future."

I can't believe how much has changed in the last few months and I know my friends and family all tried hard to make me see that things could be better (I can see it now, better late than never!) and I'm extremely proud of myself for standing up for what I wanted, who I wanted to be and for changing my situation for the better.

I cannot express how good everything feels right now and I have a small handful of people to thank for that; without them, I imagine I'd still be that empty shell of a person. So thank you, I owe it to you.

If you're unhappy with your current situation or surrounded by people that make you unhappy - CHANGE IT. Don't just tell yourself 'things will get better' because you only get one life and it's not worth spending even a smidgen of that time wallowing in misery, trust me, it isn't.

I may sound like I'm preaching but I think a lot of people don't realise that I am in a must healthier and happier place now. I spent a long time shutting myself off from everyone and everything. So to those of you who don't know, I'm back and I'm better than ever!

N xo

1 comment:

  1. Great to hear chuck, really good to hear you're in a better frame of mind!

    I'm loving the recent baking stint too!