Monday, 31 March 2014

52 Lists // Week 13 - Spring To Do List

Well seeing as I am on the other side of the world, it's not actually spring here. I LOVE spring - the sunny, crisp mornings, the daffodils, the run up to Easter (mostly for hot cross buns smothered in Nutella).

Instead of my spring to do list, I'm going to do a 'holiday to do list'; My Australia Must Do's from my travels so far. My parents visit soon so I want to jam pack in as much as possible during their stay. 

1. Lone Pine Koala Sanctuary, Brisbane - most tourists want to hold a koala and you can do that here at Lone Pine as it's legal in Queensland. For $16 you get a quick hold of the little fella as a picture (also able to let a friend/relative take a few too)

2. Airlie Beach Lagoon - I won't get to do this with my parents but when the weathers good this is a must visit.

3. A walk around Sydney Harbour - get the train to North Sydney, head to Milson's Point, walk through Luna Park, head up on a walk over the bridge and take in that view. Better yet - a bridge climb!

4. Drinks along Southbank, Melbourne - beautiful on a sunny day.

5. Horse Riding and Sea Kayaking at Cape Tribulation - incredible views. We stayed at Beach House, ideal for a night!

6. A wander round Darling Harbour, Sydney - always something going on and lots of lovely restaurants

7. Port Stephens, NSW - we hired a car and drove the short 2 hour journey there to go sandboarding and dolphin watching. The whole place is absolutely beautiful and probably one of my favourite places in Australia so far.

8. Noosa - beautiful. We went on a rainy day unfortunately but the views across the ocean from the national park are incredible.

9. Ocean Rafting to the Whitsundays - best. Trip. EVER! sooo much fun had snorkelling and lazing on Whithaven Beach. My only recommendation would be make sure to go for longer than a day!

10. Fitzroy, Melbourne - quirky cool with adorable vintage shops and boutiques. 

I could go on, I've had the best experience over here...


Sunday, 30 March 2014

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all the yummy mummy's out there!

I often find that these kind of days are a little silly, not because I don't love my mum or care but because I love and care everyday rather than just one specific day of the year.

My mum is fantastic and, despite everything I have put her through over the years, has never given up on me. I couldn't possibly love her anymore. Being away from home for almost 8 months has made me truly appreciate both of my parents so much more.

I would be lost to death without both of them!


Thursday, 27 March 2014

TRAVEL: The Reality of Work and Travel

When I decided to up and leave to fly to Asia and move temporarily to the other side of the world, I was filled with all these preconceived ideas of what that would be like. I imagined Asia as 8 weeks of paradise and Australia as a little bit of work (it has to be done to fund the lifestyle of such an expensive country) but a lot of travel, sunshine and a life pretty much like the cast of Home & Away.
While Asia was almost 8 weeks of paradise, the reality of living in Australia on a working holiday visa is very different – not necessarily in a negative way but you would be shocked if I told you how many comments/messages I receive on Facebook and Twitter telling me how ‘jealous’ people are or how lucky I am – which brings me to another point entirely.
My Australia experience has been amazing; I can’t knock it for a minute. Not only have I been lucky enough to live in both Melbourne (twice!) and Sydney, I’ve also roadtripped up the East Coast in a campervan and had a little taste of beach life in Perth. Not only that, I’ve met people here that will be friends for life and I’ve met another person, who has managed to melt that stone heart of mine and make me see things in a very different light. It didn’t always feel like this though (the living/working here, not my defrosted heart).
I’ll start at the beginning…
I have spoken here before about my reasons for coming travelling; I was lost, I’d had a bad break up and my life had done a bit of a 360 in the space of 2 weeks. I was depressed, unhappy and completely lacking my oomph; I spoke to the girls, booked a one way flight and the rest is history. I had my brilliant 8 weeks in Asia with the girls and left Bali on a flight to Perth on November 1st. Myself and two of the others had a lovely couple of weeks there in the sunshine, drinking iced coffee and lazing around before flying to Melbourne; that’s when reality hit.
I’d had 10 weeks of complete adventure, fun and freedom; I’d forgotten about why I had left, forgotten how I had felt when I had left and then it all hit me like a ton of bricks. Melbourne was cold, rainy and meant job hunting, watching my spending and, to an extent, a shot at normal life again – I was definitely not prepared for this mentally or physically (it was bloody cold and I had shorts, tie dye and crop tops).  Panic hit and I felt homesick, scared and completely out of my depth.
However, within a week I had found a job as a Barista (something I did throughout Uni) in a little café in the city, I was getting my bearings and meeting new people again. The problem is, I was living a life I could be living at home but without my family, all of my friends and familiar surroundings. Yes, I know, things change, it’s an adventure blah blah blah – it was all said but you know just as well as I do – change is difficult AND you can be told everything under the sun by others but when you are in a situation nothing sinks in unless you start to believe it yourself.  Anyway, I felt back to square one – I wasn’t and that’s what I came to realise. I found my way out of that negative headspace, worked a little and booked a flight to Sydney ready for New Years Eve.
I had the greatest time in Sydney before heading up the East Coast to experience possibly the best three weeks of my life - I cannot put the experience into words. I loved every minute of the driving, even when we were hungover or tired, I loved being able to get up and move somewhere new, I loved every beautiful beach and every breathtaking view. These are the experiences that make travelling worthwhile – especially travelling on a working holiday visa – the moments of panic will creep up on you every now and then (or maybe they won’t!) but when they do, you get up, soldier on and work your arse off to get you that East Coast trip, or that skydive, or whatever it is that you want.
I left Cairns back in February to return to Melbourne to work (back in the little café!) for 6 weeks until my Parents arrive. Those 6 weeks I wrote off as a boring period of time to save up, get some rest and reassess what I want; well, that didn’t really happen – I’m saving up, yes but I’ve had the most fantastic 6 weeks I could have expected.  
Friends I met back in Sydney have been around and I haven’t really had a moments rest – I wouldn’t change this for the world. As I said, I’ve made friends for life in these last couple of months and I’m proud of myself in a way; these 6 weeks could have been an excuse or opportunity for my head to go bad to the place it was back in November – bad vibes, negative energy – but it didn’t.
My parents will soon arrive for a few weeks of sightseeing and I couldn’t be more excited; it’s nearly 8 months since I’ve been away now and that feels like a very long time.
Once they leave, I’m doing something brave(?)…I’m following my heart and I’m flying to New Zealand. These are the joys of travelling – you never know who you will meet, where you will end up or what’s next – I used to be scared of this but now I couldn’t love it anymore.
This is the true reality of a life on a working holiday visa – there’s the ups, the downs, the amazing trips, the daily grind of having to get yourself up and go to work, the friendships, the romance, the life changing experiences…the sense of thinking, ‘yeah, I’m happy with this’.
I’m not saying running away solves everything, it doesn’t but by running away, I’ve found something truly meaningful, I’ve seen things some people will never get the opportunity to see during their whole lifetime and I’ve learned to appreciate things a hell of a lot more.
Work and travel can be hard – It’s not all days on the beach, incredible photo ops everyday – but it’s what you make of it. I am glad I had my initial slump in the early stages of living in Australia because it’s taught me that when something good happens, to grab onto it with both hands.
PS. I realise you’re all waiting for my East Coast posts, I promised you them a while ago…they will come. But right now, I feel UC is my place to clear my head and to voice how important it is for people to travel. I see so many people who miss out or lack interest in these chances – I know it’s not for everybody – but the world is an incredibly big and beautiful place, go and see some of it!

Sunday, 23 March 2014

52 Lists // Week 12 - Bedside

Travelling is always tricky when it comes to needed possessions - you don't often have a great deal of appropriate space to put anything. For the last 6 weeks I've had my own room, staying with family friends but my bedside table is still missing my moroccan light and Yankee candles.

Here's this weeks list, for my Australian room;

1. Photographs - my grandad and I and a graduation picture with my parents 

2. My glasses 

3. My iPad and kindle

4. Cocoa butter

5. My pandora bracelet 

6. My diary


Sunday, 16 March 2014

52 Lists // Week 11 - Make

The weeks are going too quickly...

This weeks list;

1. Time for the things I enjoy
2. More of an effort to stay in touch
3. Use of my degree
4. Somebody smile everyday 
5. Plans - I love having things to look forward to
6. Brownies - I'm craving them
7. Peace with my own insecurities
8. A difference through volunteering (either with animals or children)


LIFE: Unorganised Chaos

When I started this blog back in November 2012 I wasn't really sure of the direction it would go in. I primarily wanted a lifestyle and food blog, basically to document my life post-university. I was astounded when I actually attracted readers, with those readers even contacting me to tell me how much they enjoyed what they were reading on Unorganised Chaos.

I had no confidence and slowly this little space has gone from being a way to keep track of what I've been doing to a really important part of me that I wouldn't want to be without. Through other peoples kind words and looking back and seeing how far I've come, it's a real confidence boost. This also means that I don't really like to publicise my blog to people that know me; I don't want them to see me as a different person through my writing here as I keep my feelings to myself most of the time..not many people that know me realise this is here in my little corner of the internet.

This blog isn't just somewhere for me to talk about events, travel, food or the day to day things UC is home to, it's also where I sort out the feelings and thoughts that go on in my head. For years I've been working on not bottling things up and as I've been away, it's been good to have this little escape, even if I haven't written daily as I do in normal life: better to write naturally with something to say than it feel forced and overly structured.

Something quite significant has happened to me recently; something out of the blue. I won't speak about it in too much depth because despite the fact it's made me feel very vulnerable, it's also made me very happy and I want to be selfish and keep that happiness for myself. I've finally stopped bottling and let my guard down a little bit and it's scary but I have a very good feeling about it.

It's incredible what travelling can do. I said in my last post that you meet people you feel like you've been friends with for a lifetime...but you also meet people who help you gain back those missing pieces of yourself that you lost a while ago.

My plans have changed and I now have a few weeks before I can fully explore where this is going for me. I'm optimistic having not felt this strongly about something in a long while but also incredibly impatient but I guess good things come to those who wait.


Monday, 10 March 2014

LIFE: Lately.

Things have been hectic lately.

I had so many intentions for the six weeks between returning to Melbourne and my parents arriving but things have been put on hold a little. 

I had every intention of getting on top of my blogging (something I've severely neglected since I started my travelling), having early nights, eating well and abandoning the drinking...well, this hasn't gone to plan.

Just lately I've come to realise the true beauty of travelling; not just for the things you see, but for the people you meet along the way. When you're at home in your everyday life, doing the same old same old, it's hard to break away and it's even harder to find people who want to break away too. 

I sat today with my friends along Southbank, discussing the reasons we came travelling. sharing stories and we all pretty much came to the same conclusion - who will understand our experiences and the things we have shared along the way apart from ourselves and those we have shared those things with. It would be near impossible to go home or catch up with people and tell them about our time travelling. They simply won't understand. Not because they haven't done it or because we now think we are little explorers but because they weren't there for the inside jokes, the 'you had to be there' moments and the hard goodbyes.

As travellers, we are all in the same boat - we have come to see new things, meet new people and experience some kind of something while we are here. Who understands a backpacker better than another backpacker? You meet people on your adventures that you feel like you could have known a lifetime, that 'get you' because, chances are, they booked that one way ticket, quit that job and flew over here for the same reasons.

This weekend I went to Future Music Festival and had the time of my life - these are the things that travelling is about - the days you'll consider the best with the memories you won't forget.

Today has seen another goodbye and without putting things on hold, I wouldn't have just had the week I've experienced.



Wednesday, 5 March 2014

52 Lists // Week 10 - Love Yourself

1. Have more confidence in the things I can achieve

2. Get more sleep

3. Don't be so all or nothing 

4. Stop overthinking and just go with it

5. Remind myself I am only 22 and that it's okay to not know what I want to do or even who I want to be - spontaneity and mistakes are all part of our twenties


Monday, 3 March 2014

LIFE: An Afternoon by the Ocean

This afternoon was a rare one for me - I had finished work at 12, having done the early 6am shift, the sky was bright blue, the sun was beating down (often rare for Melbourne but especially surprising as the summer was coming to an end) and I thought "I'm going to make the most of this!"

Of course, I was exhausted; especially as my morning commutes have been taking almost an hour and a half. However, I could not let this occurrence go to waste. I had a brief meander around the city before hopping on the train to head towards home. My line ends at Frankston, so, with the lovely weather, I decided to walk down towards the waterfront and spend some time on the pier, staring out across the bay to the toy-like city in the distance.

The commute each day from my current home on the Mornington Peninsular to the city may sound dreadful, and some days, I wish I could roll out of bed 20 minutes before I need to and hot foot it across the CBD to work, but on days like this, I'm grateful that this is so close to 'home'.

The weather and views couldn't possibly have been nicer; I shared this little spot with the local fishermen and we all sat in complete silence, thinking, reflecting and just taking in one of many little beauties Australia has to offer.