Sunday, 16 March 2014

LIFE: Unorganised Chaos


When I started this blog back in November 2012 I wasn't really sure of the direction it would go in. I primarily wanted a lifestyle and food blog, basically to document my life post-university. I was astounded when I actually attracted readers, with those readers even contacting me to tell me how much they enjoyed what they were reading on Unorganised Chaos.

I had no confidence and slowly this little space has gone from being a way to keep track of what I've been doing to a really important part of me that I wouldn't want to be without. Through other peoples kind words and looking back and seeing how far I've come, it's a real confidence boost. This also means that I don't really like to publicise my blog to people that know me; I don't want them to see me as a different person through my writing here as I keep my feelings to myself most of the time..not many people that know me realise this is here in my little corner of the internet.

This blog isn't just somewhere for me to talk about events, travel, food or the day to day things UC is home to, it's also where I sort out the feelings and thoughts that go on in my head. For years I've been working on not bottling things up and as I've been away, it's been good to have this little escape, even if I haven't written daily as I do in normal life: better to write naturally with something to say than it feel forced and overly structured.

Something quite significant has happened to me recently; something out of the blue. I won't speak about it in too much depth because despite the fact it's made me feel very vulnerable, it's also made me very happy and I want to be selfish and keep that happiness for myself. I've finally stopped bottling and let my guard down a little bit and it's scary but I have a very good feeling about it.

It's incredible what travelling can do. I said in my last post that you meet people you feel like you've been friends with for a lifetime...but you also meet people who help you gain back those missing pieces of yourself that you lost a while ago.

My plans have changed and I now have a few weeks before I can fully explore where this is going for me. I'm optimistic having not felt this strongly about something in a long while but also incredibly impatient but I guess good things come to those who wait.

xo

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