Thursday, 31 July 2014

52 Lists // Week 31 - Good Things

I'm going to have to let you in on a little secret - I've had to cheat a little. I somehow became THREE WEEKS behind with my supposedly-weekly feature! Oops. Time seems to have just run away with me; so here are weeks 29 and 30 if you don't want to scroll back to my cheats-posted date.

SO - Good things this week!

1. Made a conscious effort to do yoga every night - even if just a few positions 
2. Eaten well
3. Really focused at work in order to organise some of the mess the team are currently in
4. Despite an initial bad reaction to some bad news, I have come around much quicker than usual and am seeing the positives (BIG step!)
5. Rescued my Grandma's poor cat from the thunder - he's very scared (usually found hiding in the wardrobe) and very old now so needing a helping hand to get inside.
6. Helped around the house whilst my Mum is out of action after an operation.


Wednesday, 23 July 2014

LIFE: Weekly Ramblings

"Those around us rarely understand. That does not make it untrue in the least, as we know." --Zen Gardner
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Since arriving home from 9 months of gallivanting around the globe, I can't say settling back into English life has been a ride in the park but then again, it hasn't been sheer hell.

Let me explain - I think in our 20's we constantly overanalyse who we are, where we are, what we are doing or should I say who we should be, where we should be and what we should be doing. I partially blame social media for this; we spend so much time reading about other peoples highlights, sometimes even comparing ourselves on a bad day to our fellow graduates or 'that person we went to school with.' I feel the difference between 22 and 23 is actually quite vast; this may seem like a very silly statement but at 22 I felt almost child-like still in a sense, whereas at 23, it's now 2 years since I finished university, I've been and done the whole travelling thing and I'm ready to find some stability and, dare I say it, some kind of routine.

You all know by now, I'm a worrier by nature and I've spent the first three years of my 20's worrying about whether I'll ever find complete happiness (a myth, nobody is happy 100% of the time, that's life), a company/business that will give me the chance to prove exactly what I can do and how I can flourish given the opportunity, a person I can happily build a life with and whether I'm 'doing the right thing'. What is the right thing? Exactly, who knows what the right thing is! There are so many different paths to choose, so many different opportunities to accept or to turn down - why do we have to spend what feels like an eternity in education, find a graduate job, find a partner, get married and have children - not everybody is doing that anymore. I graduated, I got a great job in Marketing for 12 months, I then decided to go travelling the world to experience something different and in doing so, I met the guy I love on a completely different hemisphere - we are soon to be moving in together and now, only now, am I looking for that job that I really want to settle in to. 

The other side of the 20's-worrying-cycle are the silly things, not the jobs/partners/adult things, but the other things - the friends you feel like you have to stay in touch with (even when that 'spark' isn't necessarily there anymore), being skinny, whether or not you're going 'out out' this weekend, missing out on things - you know what I'm getting at. 

I know some of you will be with me when I say we spend far too much time worrying. I've done with worrying about making sure I'm keeping to 'The Timeframe', what is that? Is it 'a thing' anymore? I will be the first to throw my hands up and admit, I have off days - I even have off and on days (note: sporadic moods) but I am realising as I make my way through my 20's that some things just aren't worth the worry anymore. I've stopped thinking I'm 'missing out', stopped worrying if I don't make plans, stopped stressing over friendships that aren't as they were, stopped thinking 'should I be at a different point now?' and most of all, stopped comparing where I am to where other people are. 

I said whilst I was away, that my Unorganised Chaos really has changed shape since I began it back in 2012 but I kinda like the way it's going; just like I am (although, with posts like this, I quite often lose the point I initially started out to make - but isn't that life!)

In other news - I've started yoga again and am thoroughly enjoying myself. It's helping me remain focused, calmer and I generally feel a lot healthier (maybe that's also down to my incredibly healthy eating which I am VERY proud of myself for).

Right now, I'm focusing on myself (in the least selfish way possible) - I'm making time for myself, taking time out for yoga or a little reflection (even if it comes out as a long, rambled blog post that I want to apologise to you for if you have made it to this point without thinking 'SHUT UP') and generally looking after myself. You know, drinking plenty of water, sleeping, little things like taking my makeup off and moisturising at night. It all sounds very simple but doing these kinds of little things is really making a difference to me.

I'm learning slowly, or maybe I'm just growing up but things seem to be making a little more sense in that overactive brain of mine.


52 Lists // Week 30 - Remember

1. My cooking/baking skills
2. Being a thoughtful and caring person
3. My writing (hopefully one day in the future)
4. My smile
5. Always being there for people
6. Never being a quitter

Being somebody with little confidence, this proved tricky for me. I'm learning day by day to take a more positive approach to things and to give myself less of a hard time.


Thursday, 17 July 2014

52 Lists // Week 29 - Books

1. Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
2. Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire - JK Rowling
3. Birdsong - Sebastian Fawkes
4.  Alice's Adventures in Wonderland - C.S Lewis
5. A Thousand Splendid Suns - Khalid Hosseini 
6. The Great Gatsby - F. Scott Fitzgerald
7. Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
8. Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
9. Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
10. The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde - Robert Louis Stevenson
11. Confessions of a Shopaholic - Sophie Kinsella 
12. BIG Lindsey Kelk fan - not only is she a great writer but she's a hoot on Twitter too!

I could go on - doing an English Literature (Language and Creative too!) degree at university meant a lot of reading - but these are my favourites from over the years. I also remember how much I loved reading Kensuke's Kingdom by Micheal Morpurgo.

And - there's nothing wrong with a good bit'a chic-lit.

Let me know your favourite books -I always love a new one to add to my 'to-read' list.


Tuesday, 8 July 2014

52 Lists // Week 28 - Dreams

1. To find THAT job
2. To be in my new home with my boyfriend, wherever that may be
3. To see more of the world
4. To master the art of multi-tasking - working, blogging, exercise, actually sitting down - there aren't enough hours in the day
5. Learn how to control my worrying
6. To feel settled
7. To have my little cottage by the sea
8. Babies, kittens and a beautiful Labrador
9. Happiness and laughter to outweigh worry and sadness