Tuesday, 30 December 2014

LIFE: Goodbye 2014

When I said goodbye to 2013 I was on a complete high after a shaky start to the year. Looking back, I am so happy with the goals I set for 2014. I feel they were realistic and achievable rather than silly things like 'quit smoking', 'lose weight' etc. They were emotional goals, mind and body goals - personal aims rather than resolutions.

I can honestly say - this year has been a complete whirlwind; an incredible and emotional whirlwind. I don't feel like half of the things I did this year actually happened to me now and it's amazing to think this time last year I was living in Sydney. I have done some life altering things (no exaggeration and probably not obvious to people how they would change my life).

2012-2013 was not a great time for me and I won't bore you with the reasons why again BUT I chose to go travelling to take a step away from all the negativity I had in my life and the emotional negativity I imposed on myself. I made a risky decision to go travelling - I quit my job, booked a one way flight and had absolutely no plan at all. It was without a doubt the best decision I could have ever made. I know I started my trip in 2013 and had already spoken about this at the end of the year/beginning of 2014 but I only returned home in June so half of 2014 also involved living in Australia.

While I was away, I learned some very important things - not just through places I went but also things about myself. I cut myself some slack and I realised I was worth so much more than I gave myself credit for; this is a huge step for me and one I am still pinching myself about because it has taken me such a long time to get to this point.

The experiences I have had during 2014 - driving the East Coast in a campervan with three of my friends, spending three weeks travelling with my parents, living and working in a completely different country and loving it, meeting different people with different mind sets and really learning from them and the biggest thing of all - waking up one morning, assessing things and if I  wasn't enjoying something, thinking 'it's time for a change'. I will never forget any of these moments and I would advise anybody contemplating travelling or wanting a change in their life to just go for it - it could be the best thing you do for yourself and, if it isn't, it's another experience to put in the book of life.

I told you the other day about the things I have learned in 2014, and well, there are a lot of things I have realised, learned and even achieved this year.

Since returning home I have had some blips, a couple of moves, felt disheartened when job hunting, felt a bit confused, been to some lovely restaurants, spent a lot of time in London, got a new job that I couldn't be happier with and, if I'm completely honest, feel like I've got my shit together a little bit - it's not been easy; I've had crap times, another break up, I've felt unsettled, readjusted to life back in the UK BUT I've also had so many good times and I probably feel, at this point, that this is 'the start' and that I'll always look back on 2014 as my turning point.

I won't ramble on too much more - you've seen my travel posts (and I still have a ridiculous amount to write), my recipes, places I've eaten, ticked a few more things off my bucket list and read about my general rambling and visits.

It's been a bloody good year! Here's a recap of my 2014 Goals:

1. Do what makes me happy - focus on me and if I'm not happy with something, change it
- Done done done! When I returned from Australia I had to reconsider what would make me happy in familiar surroundings because, things felt different. I read a quote about travelling basically saying, when you return that everything is the same but you realise you aren't. Couldn't agree with this more - I probably hadn't or haven't noticeably changed to those close to me but I feel like my mind set has seriously shifted and I have a better sense of what I want now (please note: I am still a confused twenty-something with no plan, no idea what's going on half of the time BUT I feel determined to be a somebody now, not to sink into the background)

2. Look after myself - eat well, exercise regularly, don't drink too much - keep my mind and body healthy.
- definitely feel I've achieved this. I didn't exercise as often as I had hoped whilst I was travelling apart from the occasional spin class but since I've got home I've rejoined the gym, managed three sessions (at least - usually four-five) per week and I've begun my training for a 10k next year.

3. Trust my own judgement more and stop thinking so much - I'm a terrible decision maker and need to learn to just take the leap sometimes - if it doesn't work out, make the best out of a bad situation and move on.
- 100% done this and I am incredibly proud of myself. The best example of this was when I returned home and realised something wasn't making me anywhere near happy so I changed that and moved on. I took charge of my own happiness, something I've struggled with in the past and I can 100% say it's one of the best decisions I've ever made and I'm in a much healthier and happy place because of trusting my own judgement.

4. Keep in touch with people - I get lazy. It's hard to keep in touch sometimes when you don't speak to people everyday, especially with the time difference,
- I managed it with some and not others - the time difference was hard and, realistically, people have things going on in their lives so sometimes weeks can pass without catching up with somebody, regardless of what country you're in or the time difference.

5. Embrace my experiences - I will hopefully be in Australia for the majority of this year (hopefully squeezing in Fiji and New Zealand at some point
- well I unfortunately didn't make it to Fiji and, although I went to NZ, I didn't see as much of it as I had hoped BUT I do feel I embraced my experiences. I can home early that planned for a couple of reasons but I certainly don't regret it. Of course, there will always be many things I wish I had done while I was there but I can't say I didn't embrace it.

6. Be able to surf - I had a few lessons and plan to do surf camp but want to be able to go home being able to do more than not fall at a baby wave.
- I can't say I was amazing but I managed to surf a fair bit and lived to tell the tale!

7. Complete at least another 5 things on My Bucket List
- I did SO well with this - climbed the Sydney Harbour Bridge, held a koala, road tripped in a campervan up the East Coast of Australia, skydived, lived in a different country for a while, went sandboarding and went to the Whitsundays - this makes me feel so lucky.

8. Be more of a 'yes' woman - this was my goal last year as well and I DEFINITELY achieved it but I want to step it up a notch this year.
- I definitely feel like I achieved this - even more so since I've returned home as well. Even if something makes me anxious now, I have a firm belief that 'if you don't try, you will never know' and sometimes, what scares us is what we need the most.

I am incredibly excited to see what 2015 will bring!

I hope you've all had a good 2014!




  1. This sounds like one of the best and most adventurous of years!! So proud of you for reaching your goals and keeping so positive throughout the year! I hope 2015 brings you tons of happiness and adventure too :) lots of love!

    Hazel xx

    1. And the same to you lovely lady! 2015 will be our year! xo