Thursday, 28 January 2016

LIFE: A Catch Up

It's no secret that towards the end of last year, things got tough.

Like really tough. I mean, I've been through various things in the past that I've openly spoken about on here - bad break ups, mental health, feeling a bit lost - but the last couple of months have been the toughest yet. And it's only just hit me. It's got me in a bit of a rut. I'm not really the biggest fan of writing negatively in posts but I've always said, this is a space for me to write about the good, the bad and the tasty. So right now, I'm getting by. And I think it's a prime example of things looking good via social media, but somebody's life not being all rosy. We don't post the negative. I don't post photos of my weekly hospital visits to see my friend, the harsh truth of the other things going on, the struggle to motivate myself, the struggle to drum up conversation. Because it really is a struggle right now but thankfully I have a very busy job that keeps me occupied. 

So, to the positive. I've just got back from a work trip to Italy. Rive del Garda is one of the most incredible places to visit. The views are mind-blowing, the food is delicious and it's always a lot of fun.

This basically sums up the trip. 

A lot of Buffalo Mozzarella. A lot of tomatoes. Drizzled with balsamic. 

Since getting back from Italy, it's continued to be hectic. Meetings, London trips, days feeling like a few hours. I'd say it's the time of year but it has felt like this for over 12 months now. Where do the hours go? I have no idea. 

I need to talk about these shoes. My friends over at French Sole told me a while ago about the Little Dax shoes. They're a collaboration with Rosie from Made in Chelsea and a percentage of the retail cost of the shoes goes to Battersea Dogs Home. OBVIOUSLY, I had to have these. They're the closest I can get to owning a Sausage Dog right now and they're adorable. 

This week I had another meeting in London over at Somerset House. It's the first time I've actually been over when it's not been hectic with LFW or some other event on. So it was very peaceful and nice to meet there to discuss all things fashion and footwear.

With the rest of the day, I headed first to Jermyn Street to check out all of the footwear shops. I'd been meaning to head down there for such a long time so enjoyed seeing the collections in a retail environment. From there I headed over to various other parts of London to immerse myself in more shoe-retailed things.

Obviously I needed a pit stop and I'm pleased to say I FINALLY got myself over to Mildred's in Soho. Mildred's is a veggie/vegan restaurant with a fantastic menu. It took me a long, long time to choose what I wanted and I 100% over-ordered (as always!!). I got the halloumi from the small plates and a small salad. This wasn't just any salad, oh no no no, it was BEAUTIFUL. Genuinely one of the nicest salads I've had in AGES! It was the organic detox salad: beetroot, carrot, sultanas, sprouting and toasted seeds in lime and ginger dressing with marinated tofu or goats cheese. I mean, I'd never think to put sultanas in a salad. It worked SO well. And there's nothing better than a crunchy seed in a salad. 

I will 100% be visiting again, maybe I'll head to the Camden one this time and try the burgers!

And this morning, I've woken up to sunshine and an unexpectedly mild winter morning. I woke up a bundle of anxiety but I've sat working from home before my meeting this afternoon and it's helped focus my mind. I started back at yoga this week, finding a local class. Although it's a lot more than I'd want to pay I feel like it's definitely what I need right now.

So, I'm sorry this isn't the most upbeat thing to read but I am a firm believer in not shying away from how you're feeling. Somebody said to me this week when I asked how they were 'yeah, I'm great thanks. Are you? ACTUALLY, I'm not great. I'm ill and a bit fed up.' This was somebody I'd previously only spoken to via email until this meeting and I really appreciated this honest approach. People shy away from feeling shitty as though they're embarrassed to admit they're a bit down in the dumps. I've learned over the years it's totally not worth bottling your feelings.

It's not all bad. I have two lovely weekends coming up, someone that's keeping a smile on my face and a February full of travel. And I think that's what's important, finding the good in a cluster of bad and carrying on, admitting you're not okay but you will be, with time.


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